Overwhelming

That's the best way to describe today. Being back at work, back in my usual life, it just feels overwhelming. Being away from Conny leads to these emotional withdrawl pains. Everything that feels easy when she's around is suddenly almost more than I can bear. I know in a day or two, I'll be back to my slightly numb self, and it's just a transitional thing. That doesn't make the feeling any less strong right now. And I know she suffering from the same thing, which makes it worse.

Things are just going so fast, and are so powerful, that I have to remind myself that it was just December when she first came here. How have we packed all those intense, intimate life changing experiences into such a short time? I never planned on being where I am right now, but I suppose life is what happens while you're busy making plans.


The Big Rotten Apple

Being back in New York after Munich makes me realize what a visually unappealing city Manhattan is. There are some parts of it with some charm, but basically it's an ugly, dirty eyesore. That doesn't mean I don't love it, or that it doesn't have lots about it to like. But, there's not a lot of beauty here. Culture, talent, art, opportunity and innovation abound on these crowded, filthy streets, and that's why I love New York. But a city like Munich sure is easy on the eyes.

New York subways never looked quite so horrible until after seeing the U-bahn. It's like the difference between rolling through a sewer on a skateboard with one bad wheel and a ride at Disneyland without the line.
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